LOSING MY GROUNDS

what's wrong with me?!
why am i feeling jealousy underneath me?! am i really jealous or just being protective.

i hate it and i don't want it.
i want this pessimistic sense out of my system, it's not helping me to become the person that i am. it's ruining my life, as well as the people around me.

i don't know how all this stuff started.
OMG! it's painfully killing me. i may be happy but i am crying in pain deep within.
we are having the greatest time of our life together, suddenly everything changes.

i told you so, this year is not mine. since the start of the year everything is messed up. bad vibes here and there. i'm not used to it.

why can't some people learn to respect others?
somethings not right and i'm feeling it, even if no one spill the beans out.

i know that everything happens for a reason. but the reason behind everything that's happening was unreasonable. things are getting so complicated for me now. i can't figure out everything.

OH GOD! please do help me. am so confused, so disturbed. i can't handle this pain, it's breaking me into pieces.

PS: sorry for this entry. it's a totally disturbing and unorganized. i can't organized my thoughts right at his moment. my emotional state is not stable right now